A Parody of Hope - to Yeats

Attentive upon the widening gyre

The falconer lays no claim upon the falcon

Things fall apart as they do, 
yet the centre remains calm

Mere anarchy may be loosened upon the world 

But if the new born babe remains unwise

To the best and the worst

Without one the other cannot arise

Surely the revelation lies in the emptiness

The absence of any presence

There is no second coming where there is no one

For a man may walk in a lion's body

But must return to dust and be light

A light that heeds not one nor the other

The mutant only created by mind

No darkness may fall where light is intrinsic

There is no birth where greed desists

And at the hour where the beast meets the void

He is conquered by the absence

Time

This body is a shell

a temporary home

To see a glimpse of the world

A window of wisdom

A atom in the mass of molecules

A wave in an ocean

And as the pendulum swings

We realize that there is no pendulum afterall

only a self absorbed need

To explain decay

When you wish upon a star.....

I need a dream. In my head there are a million little sparks of the future, sparks that I have lit and forgotten about. I need a dream. I need to hold on to one thing that makes me want to run with the clouds. I want that one thing that consumes me and saves me. I keep changing, thinking that walking different paths I might find mine. I haven't. Well thankfully I haven't looked back yet. But those little fires die sometimes, and I think that without it there's no point to all this. I don't want them to see a pretty face so I go ugly. They put me down and say I can't so I don't. I'm chasing my own tail. I need a dream. I need to stop remembering how warm your smile is, 'cos when I'm cold and hungry you won't be my easy way out. I want to stop feeling guilty for staying away and remember I do so to let you heal, to let me heal. I want to stop being ashamed and accept that the past is a baggage you choose to carry, and not one thrust upon you. I want to forget how cold and dark that house was...is...I want to hide. And then a spark fires and I want to soar again. I need a dream. Just for awhile, I need a dream to wake up from reality.

ghosts...

Idealism sucks...there's nothing ideal about it...we dream...we dream about dreaming...and we are so happy just dreaming we don't bother to act it out....we have our perfect situations...we love to think that those perfect situations have their imperfections but we love it more for it...we love to fool ourselves...we love to think that we were never in love...we were just fooling around...there's a reason why its called fooling around, 'cos it makes a fool out of you...sure you laugh...sure you runaway....of course you're scared...but you never think that this was the dream...you run 'cos it's what ur feet are used to...because for you its better than breathing...better than getting high on a few puffs of god knows what they do...the high is in the pain of knowing that you will cause pain...not realizing it takes two to tango two to bleed...you think you're ahead of the game when everyone else behind you are just ghosts...and so many...you're little collectibles...you're memorabilia of life as it were...you're still running...to idealism...away from a dark house...away from cutting words...away from angry eyes...away from claws...not realizing there was another road...one with loving hand and laughing eyes and sunshine...but you can't chose...there IS no choice...the intertwined mangled idealism of life...I hate idealism...idealism sucks...

You Cry

Stopped wondering today
Why I forgot to smile
Stopped remembering the day
How I learnt to die
If your wondering why I turn
I turn 'cos love's a lie
Don't wanna be ur life
Don't want u in mine

But you take my breath away
Even when I break you
You take my breath way
I can't defeat you
You take my breath away
Cos its a prayer that I say
I hope you never find the day
You remember why
You cry

Sometimes I wonder if I don't say it
Will it disappear
I know if I break u so many times
you'll learn fear
But somehow you know that I
I need you here
Without you near
I might not survive

But you take my breath away
Even when I break you
You take my breath way
I can't defeat you
You take my breath away
Cos its a prayer that I say
I hope you never find the day
You remember why
You cry

And when you lift me throw me up
I remember the miracles I forgot
This place I'm in you've always been
The whisper in my heart

But you take my breath away
Even when I break you
You take my breath way
I can't defeat you
You take my breath away
Cos its a prayer that I say
I hope you never find the day
You remember why
I cry

The Edge of all Things Strange and Beautiful

Dear You

You held me when I was broken
Held me together
Kept my breath in my body
As my soul fell apart
You throw me
Into the sky
Passing rainbows and clouds
Touching the stars
You free me
Knowing I can never be captured
You let me find you
All on my own
You breath me
For it is you
and only you
I will let
To breath me in