About Mistakes.......

Some say they wouldn't change any of the mistakes they made in life.....because it's those mistakes that moulded them into who they are....for me.....there are a few mistakes i wish i could take back....because inspite of them teaching me the biggest lessons in life......it took something precious away.....like the laughter in the eyes of a good friend.....the warmth of love.....the beauty of honesty and trust.......

and….then there are the big whoppers…… mistakes that teach us the wrong lessons….the lessons we don’t want to learn in life…..like how NOT to trust….how NOT to love….how NOT to let your guard down…..how NOT to depend on anyone….

And then you break a heart…..you mistrust someone…….you hurt someone….that doesn’t feel like a mistake….because we learnt how to self-preserve……and there is no going back after that….everything after that is shrugged off…..as circumstantial riffraff…..

A long time ago in a large conference room in a tiny hotel in south of England a little grey haired man told me…..forget the lessons …..forget the moulding….the crafting…..the scars…..the cuts…..forget all the marks that life left upon you…..shed the layers and layers of rust that has built.....go back to who you were before “THEY” came into the picture…..live your life like a child…..a child who dreams of growing silver wings and flying into the blue blue sky……live your life like you walk on air…..like water’s something you breath in…..like the ground is only for you to lay down to sleep……

Life is huge……so huge….and so beyond our comprehension…..but when we let our mistakes push us around……we let them shove us back…..a few steps back….in which time we could have leapt a few steps ahead…..

Life in full blast is ethereal……it’s like leaping off the edge and discovering you can float…as light as a feather...with the air flowing right through you…..right through your veins……if you let it…..it will accept you….mistakes and all…..

but….first…….you need to forgive yourself…..mistakes and all…….